Wednesday, April 25, 2012

What Rhymes With Ovaries?

Is it just me, or are there babies popping up everywhere lately?

Every time I see a baby my ovaries start to ache. I want another one SO badly! Everyone tells me "but you've got your son", "he's not even two yet", "you have plenty of time for more", but clearly my body doesn't agree. I mean yes, these are all true statements but that doesn't stop me from wanting more children!

I love my son to pieces. He learns new things every day and I am constantly in awe of him. I still get that wow feeling when I look at him and think, that little boy is mine. I made that! and a surge of pride and love and joy sweeps over me. Then I think, I cannot wait to do it again!

Another thing I get a lot of is "you'll never get another one like him", and that's probably also true. Guess what though...I don't want another one like him; I want a brand new one who will be different and who will definitely bring me just as much pride and joy and love.

We don't have plans to expand the family quite yet. My husband and I have decided to wait until 2013 for that (lots of practice in the meanwhile!). Until then though, I'm not going to try to stop my body from yearning another child; I will embrace the feeling, the joy it brings me to strive for something so big.

So, friends and strangers beware: if you have a baby or will be having a baby soon, I envy you and I will comment on how precious your baby is/will be and I will give you a melancholy look as my hand inadvertently hovers over my non-pregnant stomach, but only because I am so happy for you and I can't wait to feel that joy anew!

Friday, April 20, 2012

More Ch-ch-ch-changes

I know it's been a while since I've posted anything. It's not that I haven't wanted to, more that I didn't know if I should. I want this blog to remain as public as possible so sometimes I need to use my discretion when it comes to posting, especially about work. I'm not a spy or a doctor or something, so I won't ever be posting super secret information, but I don't want to put myself in a position where I could get into trouble so I try to avoid posting about work in general.

Needless to say that I really do enjoy my job, there have just been a lot of changes lately and it has been taking its toll on me! I embrace change, I go a bit stir-crazy without it...but lately there has just been a lot of change and it has all been a bit overwhelming! I'm surviving though - I have to. Change is good, of that I'm convinced, so I'm not going to let it get me down!

I have a couple of non-work related posts that I want to get to so keep checking back! I promise that I'll get over this hump and be back to myself in no time!

Extra bonus - it's Friday!